Wednesday, October 8, 2008

I am so Selfish...

Over the past 24 hours I've been pondering the fact that I am being selfish. Maybe not in the sense of always wanting something, but in always thinking about ME. I've fallen into the trap of comparing MY schedule and MY tiredness and MY to-do lists with everyone else. In reality, who cares? I was talking with my boss about this, and she said the best thing is to not even dwell on the comparison game, because it really doesn't matter and accomplishes nothing.
I think often when people start talking about how busy they are and all they have to do, it is just a cry for attention, and I do it too. Lately, it's mostly been in my head, because I know in a leadership position I can't talk about me all the time. But, I've started thinking all the time about how much more I have to do than you, and am struggling with being all here right now. I found these verses in the Bible that helped:

"A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. People curse the man who hoards grain, but blessing crowns him who is willing to sell. He who seeks good finds goodwill, but evil comes to him who searches for it. Whoever trusts in his riches will fall, but the righteous will thrive like a green leaf. " -Proverbs 11:25-28

I truly am refreshed when I refresh others, just lately I have not been doing it like I should. I'm sorry for this, and I pray God continues to give me the strength I need to be the encourager that glorifies Him. I'm continuously reminded: it's not about me!

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